OK, so I say, “Here’s a challenge!” and then I wait some more. Why the heck am I trolling myself so hard with this one? I swear it is unintentional. Is there a curse involved with saying you should love a troll? Did I just curse myself? Darn it. I probably did, didn’t I? Pretty sad when I’m the only troll identified in the hermit housing (population 1). The screening really needs to be better for this place.
So, how does one stop trolling ones-self? I guess step one is to set realistic expectations. Probably starting a new post a week challenge for the year would have been the smart thing to do. However, as I have been there and done that (barely) it does seem rather unexciting to de-escalate a challenge. Kind of defeats the purpose and the challengy-ness of the whole thing. This new trolly option is kind of unlikely, but it also makes the game a bit more fun. Can I do this? Should I still try? Me being the odd little hermitling that I am, I can really only say “heck, yes” and attempt to continue to keep this little engine a-think-I can-ing.
I guess that means really only one thing. I have to do this. I need to stop talking about doing this, and really accept that this is happening. Hiding from it will not reverse time. I can’t really do anything now but work at it. I guess that is my answer. In order to stop trolling myself I have to work…kinda hard…Boo!
At the same time, I think that is sort of the whole point of this, isn’t it? In order to give trolls some love I really do have to actually love myself (eye roll, snicker) enough to say no, I am not a troll. I am just an over achieving hermit who is bored and in need of some word salad posts to make me feel better. Mmmmm…Word salad. That seems toothsome. And toothsome seems trolly. We may have just come full circle. Or, I’m hungry for salad (is anyone really ever hungry for salad? Truly? lol). I must admit I do enjoy a Greek or Tabbouleh salad…so yes…I think we have determined that I am hungry. And apparently having a voracious appetite is a troll thing. And hamster thing, but I digress.
Anyway, here we go down the road to nowhere. I have just set the bar to low…and promise to do better.
~Liv
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